from the second i gave birth to both of my daughters, i was spell bound. suddenly, there is no need for nutrition or sleep. nothing outside of the hospital room matters. there is no want for anything but to hold and love this perfect, tiny, amazing human being. hours and hours are spent watching them sleep.
when they smile, my heart melts. when they are sad, my heart breaks. when they accomplish something, my heart races. and when they laugh, my heart flutters.
motherhood doesn't come without its challenges but the happiness far outweighs the hard times. i know that chloe and lucy are mine. i know my grandpa sent them down with a big kiss and some good advice. i know julie's mom loved lucy, played with her, and sent her down with a special softness that she still carries.
she's been in this world for 4 minutes.
she's been in the world for 6 hours.
she's only been here for 2 days.
she's perfect.
my first baby girl was born 14 years ago. my second baby girl was born 9 weeks ago. each experience was totally different in every aspect ... EVERY aspect. but i am so in love with both of them that it actually makes my heart ache.
she's been on this earth for 14 years.
she's been here for 9 weeks.
they are perfect.
when they smile, my heart melts. when they are sad, my heart breaks. when they accomplish something, my heart races. and when they laugh, my heart flutters.
motherhood doesn't come without its challenges but the happiness far outweighs the hard times. i know that chloe and lucy are mine. i know my grandpa sent them down with a big kiss and some good advice. i know julie's mom loved lucy, played with her, and sent her down with a special softness that she still carries.
we'll never be the family in matching shirts at Disneyland. we'll never be on time. there will always be expired milk in the fridge. we'll never follow all the rules. there won't be a lot of baking happening in our house. Christmas cards will always be sent out in february. rent will always be late. and one of us will always have a mysterious rash or illness. but at the end of the day, my girls will know that they are loved, safe and perfect. they will know that nothing is more important than the truth. they will know kindness and gratitude.
we'll live with the unexpected. we'll dream about summer homes in mexico. we'll burn frozen pizzas. we'll sleep through school when it snows. we'll laugh at each other. we'll follow our hearts. we'll make really stupid mistakes. we'll fight. we'll pull nana's wig off. we'll forget our coats. we will live with a lot of gratitude and hope.
with so much love and such amazing daughters, i know we can grow from any crisis or heartache. even if it means taking it one day at a time.
with so much love and such amazing daughters, i know we can grow from any crisis or heartache. even if it means taking it one day at a time.
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